6. Truth about me

Truth: I have the lowest self esteem of anyone I know. My mind is a mess, I hate myself, and nothing ever goes right. I may seem confident and sure of myself but it is all just an act. I feel so uncomfortable with every word I say and everything I do. I look in the mirror and I see a person that I never wanted to be. I don't want to stand out. I would rather have no one then be uncomfortable with who I am with. I am closed off because I am so sick of being hurt. I hate it. I hate it more than anyone will ever know. I want to be the kinda person who is the life of the party, who's friends with everyone, and who does not make everything affect me. Why do I get sick when ever I am around people?.... Let me tell you why. Because I hate myself! I don't wanna mess things up. All my stupid anxiousness about all of the stupid little things makes everything so much worse. I want to be a different person. Confident, pretty, and important. Not just the replacement.